I am coming off some of the best weeks of pickup of my life. doing amazing things in field, fucking lots of new girls, pulling girls, moving girls, making out all over, etc.
Despite all this, I feel a little deflated today. I am leaving town on Thursday for 3.5 weeks so I had stacked Mon/Tues/Wed with dates. I just fuck closed #120 last night (Sun night) and I've been doing really well so I shouldn't be feeling deflated at all.
The reason that I AM feeling this way is because i had a daytime day 2 flake today and my night time day 2 got rescheduled. the nighttime reschedule is with a blonde model who is real smart and it's def a solid reschedule for wed night (had to cancel my original wed night plans). i also have a hottie confirmed for tues night and that was a very solid confirm for today. and the reschedule reason for the date being cancelled tonight (mon night) seemed very true -- she claimed a last minute group project get together was scheduled and she couldn't skip it. we texted the rest of the day very flirty so she def is still very on and the reschedule for wed is very solid. she seems like a really fucking awesome girl (on top of being hot). DESPITE still having hotties scheduled for tues and wed night and also TWO tuesday daytime slots, a latenight wed spot, and a tentative late night tuesday spot, I am deflated and sad. Those of you that know me know that one disappointment can shatter me. THIS IS WHY I NEED TO READ Bhagavad Gita and other books about indifference ASAP.
Let's get into the one disappointment....there was this 18 year old that has a bf that i was gaming up for 3 weeks. she was being flirty and openly sexual at times. lots of smileys, exclamation points, etc. i got her to agree to come drink with me on my balcony outside my room and not bring her bf and she was gonna wear a bikini and shit. she bailed at the very last minute even though it seemed super on. i burned it to the ground but it was so on that it really got to me. then my blonde model for the day 2 at night rescheduled for wednesday. it turned out to be a very solid reschedule (we text flirted the rest of the afternoon) but it added to the annoyance. then i set up a fuck buddy for 4 pm who ended up flaking..then i set up a day 2 for 10:30 and that flaked out too. i was in this ballistic OCD scarcity text frenzy coming across super needy and butthurt to girls. this kind of behavior NEEDS TO STOP ASAP.
let's look at things logically: i have been CRUSHING IT lately and doing better than ever before. what i was attempting with the meetup with the 18 year old with a boyfriend was an extremely difficult and advanced pickup with low risk of success. i shouldn't totally deflate when it doesn't come through. i should PRAISE MYSELF for getting as far as i did. either way, WHO GIVES A FUCK. then the night time reschedule turned out to be a legitimate last minute conflict that arose. i still have the day 2 with the model on wednesday night and i confirmed my day 2 for tues night with another hottie. i'm going to see my old 9.5 fuck buddy in the morning, then i have 2 other fuck buddies coming over in afternoon slots before my day 2 at night. then i have a tentative day 2 for a late night slot tomorrow. I HAVE NOTHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT. i need to become IMMUNE to shit like this.
this is actually perfect timing since i'm going out of town for 3.5 weeks. i'm going to outline my plan in my next post.
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